Its Been A Year
Arturo Castañón Sr.
September 19th, 1958 – July 5th, 2004
It’s been a year and although you can’t see it in my face, the sadness I feel is still with me. Yes, it’s been a year since both my father and father in law passed away, but you know what, that’s okay. It’s also hard to believe that my brother has been gone almost eight years. But in a way, I kind of envy them, all the peace, quiet and love I am missing out on. I know it’s kind of selfish on my part to think this way; but, I owe it to my daughter, my beautiful wife and my loved ones to hang around just a little bit longer. The bitter taste of life is no longer in my mouth and gradually subsiding. How did everything go so wrong? What did we all do in this life to deserve this? Only God knows the answer to that and I’m sure he’s not happy with me writing this post. But I just can’t help the way I feel.
I personally, have had a hard time waiting on “Him” in areas and trying times in my life. I know I’m not the only one that has. We eventually all do at one time or another. However, I have found that waiting is a key component to bringing me and my loved ones together again one day in the afterlife. After all, it shouldn’t all be about me. I know it’s selfish to think this way on my part, but whenever I think about losing someone else close to me, I tend to lose focus and get discouraged in this life. But, I think I have finally figured it out, and patience, is the key. This allows me to refocus and realize that there are victories that come from waiting.
And so I will wait. I will bite the bullet. I will stay patient and stay strong, because there is a light at the end of the tunnel, a bright light, and it is waiting for me. And that’s exactly what I will do. I will start living life with no regrets. Dad, Art and Jim, I guess you will just have to wait for me a little longer. I’m sure you would all agree with me, all in due time. Love you guys. Gone but not forgotten.